Monday, December 22, 2014

Gemzar, I Don't Know

My mind is not here or there. I am in true "chemo brain" mode. I have too many things to do right now with not the right mind and no energy. Can only write in short sentences.

Today, I go in for another Gemzar treatment. Please pray that my white blood cell levels will be high enough for me to receive treatment. My husband had the flu last week, and A3 had some weird, I-don't-know-illness on Saturday. I have been dodging coughs, colds, and flus for the past few months.

Yesterday, someone said, "I heard that you weren't feeling well on Saturday." How do you explain that that is how it always is? That that is my normal. I just have to push through to get things done as a wife, mother, teacher, and pastor's wife.


by Denise Calazans Kobayashi


Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Gemzar Cycle 1, Treatment 3

Thank you for all of your prayers! Yesterday, I went for my third Gemzar treatment (wasn't able to get the second due to low neutrophil counts, but it still counted), and my neutrophil levels were wonderfully high! They were at 2.2! I can't remember the last time they were that high! When I first heard the count, I thought that I had heard wrong. I had to ask the nurse to repeat the number. It went from .7 to 2.2! So thankful!

The treatment wasn't as bad this time. I still got a bit queasy, but not as much as last time. As the nurse pulled out the needle from my port, I could feel a stream of liquid. It turned out to be blood. Glad that I only saw the dried up stuff on the gauze strip.

Today was the day that I was supposed to give myself the Neulasta shot (white blood cell booster), but my counts were so good that my nurse told me that I could hold off on it. This was an answer to prayer! This is Thanksgiving week! No time to be sick! Thank You, Lord!

I had to go to Costco to get some last minute things, and by the end, I was dragging my feet and slurring my speech. We must have been there less than an hour. That is the one aspect about the hormone pills that I liked: I had energy. Chemotherapy: no energy.

Thankful that three years have passed since my "big" surgery (mastectomy/thyroidectomy). Thankful for another Thanksgiving with my family!


Monday, November 17, 2014

No Gemzar

My husband drove me to my chemo treatment. Honey, thank you for giving up your basketball for me! I had my blood drawn and we waited. Started getting queasy just being there! Two hours later, I got the news. My neutrophil levels (white blood cells that fight infection) were too low at 0.7. Disappointing. I need a 1.5 or above to get chemo.

The nurse had to call my oncologist. Dr. K said to skip this dose and try again next week.

Please pray for my neutrophil counts to go up. Also, pray that I don't get sick during that time.

At least I got to spend time with my husband and eat a yummy lunch with him!