Trust Jesus

Had this chorus repeat itself over and over in my head. I don't even know the name of the song. It was a song we sang during worship. Just these two words stuck out. Thank You, Holy Spirit!

August 31
Had chemo

September 1
Xgeva shot

September 2
Woke up with a migraine (never had a migraine before), nausea, vomiting, dizziness, no balance, couldn't keep my eyes open
Went to ER
Had CT/MRI
Found tumor in my cerebellum
Couldn't eat but being pumped with meds

In retrospect
My vision had gotten horribly worse, despite an exam 2-3 months ago
Had been having major balance issues
Had some headaches sometimes (never dealt with headaches before)

September 3
The tumor in my cerebellum was the size of an egg
Met with my oncologist
Met with a neurosurgeon
Met with a neuro-radiologist
There was agreement that surgery would be the best option with radiation therapy after I recovered

So wanted to go home
So weak from not eating well and all the meds
Finally was able to go home
Would not have been able to if it had not been Labor Day Weekend

As we exited the final exit off the highway, I was overwhelmed with tears. So thankful for such a loving husband. So thankful for my wonderful children. So thankful for supportive, loving, praying family. I have lived such a blessed life! Why didn't I realize this more!

September 8
5:15 AM            Go to hospital
6:00 AM             Specialized MRI for surgery
7:00-7:30 AM    Surgery

Spiritually
I am covered
I can't describe the love of God that has filled and strengthened me

Physically
I need strength
Still recovering from last week's chemo (aversion to smells/not being able to eat well)
Still some nausea
Still some balance issues
Still physically weak

On Steroids
14 days to keep the swelling down
The nurse said that I could develop acid reflux
Please pray that I won't develop any stomach issues so that I can eat well and be strengthened

My Friend's Brain Surgery
A blessing in disguise
It helped shed the fear that comes with brain surgery

Having to Go to the ER
Brought all of this to light
None of it had shown up on my blood tumor marker
The neorosurgeon said that if it had not been brought to light, I would have been in a coma in three months

So thankful!