Patterns or Issues?

There is this pattern in my life. I've seen it many times. It usually comes to light when I have a lot of things to do. Usually, things that I don't want to do. The last time I went to see my oncologist, she gave me the names of a few doctors to make appointments with. For some reason, this was really burdensome to me. I could not move. I could not function. I wanted it to go away.

Each day I would wake up knowing that I had to call and make appointments but I just couldn't do it. I would over think situations. I would over think that it was not a good time of day to call the office because of this or that. Then it would be 5:00. Too late.

One of the doctors I have to call is a new primary care doctor. If you remember, my last primary care doctor misdiagnosed me. I am a bit skiddish about getting a new primary care doctor and then having to ask to transfer all my records. Another doctor that I have to see is for the oophorectomy. I still don't know what to do about that one. Should I get my ovaries removed or ask for some other medication? So many side effects both ways. The last doctor is for my hepatitis. So many doctors. So many specialists. I am not one who likes to really shop around a lot. If my oncologist recommended a doctor, I am one to just go with that person. Do I look for someone else? So many questions.

I really need His wisdom. I really need to call. Alright, I have issues... make appointment issues.